I like horoscopes. I especially like the ones from Tarot.com, they seem awfully accurate. This is my horoscope for today:
Your thoughts about your life and purpose have deepened over the past couple of months, thanks to the recent Mars retrograde in your 12th House of Destiny. Now, as this phase ends, you aren't interested in spiritual pursuit unless it also has some practical application. This is not about putting an end to your dreams; it's about using your imagination to recreate your life.
Right. Scarily true.
Following the few moments of enlightenment, I've been feeling like a hyperactive kid. I have had very intensive thinking sessions and I have felt for the last few days as if I'm directly connected to some undepletable source of infinite inspiration. Like electricity.
I know from my previous stokes of genius however, I know that the moment of glory is usually short and then burns out leaving nothing to show for itself but a strange feeling tiredness and temporary depression. So this time, I have made a list of things that I need to do. I have made list of purchases. I have drawn pictures with instructions and a few funny notes to keep me cheered up when the depression settles in. I have to keep my chin up, eyes on the goal and smile on my face for if I don't everything is lost.
Today I went out to the welfare office to register myself as unemployed.
I barely got out the door when I met my landlord, who is a well known Irish photographer and who I get on with really well. I told him I lost my job. He lowered my rent and asked if I can re-design his website and set up an online shop, as he prefers to pay me rather than the guys who originally designed it. It's a lovely sunny day and I have to say, my spirits are lifted. I might even lift some spirits later today in my local pub.
In light of what happened and what has been happening over the last few weeks I can't stop myself from thinking about Manual of the Warrior of Light by Paulo Coelho that I read some five years ago, so just before my life had gone crazy. One particular part of it says:
"When somebody wants something, the whole Universe conspires in their favour."
I think that the Universe has been conspiring in my favour quite a lot lately. Even the things that I find difficult and that at first seem to be working against me are actually a part of a grander scheme that I might not be able to see, but I always - ALWAYS - come out on top.
So here I am, munching on meringues, and thinking.
I'll let you in on my plans next week ;).