One should believe in coincidence?

This morning some things that everyone expected to happen didn't happen and I had to make some uncomfortable phone calls just as I found out to try to rescue myself.

One would say it's nothing more but a coincidence, yet I don't believe in coincidences and I am angered at the world, which rather unfairly, yet again, makes my life more difficult than expected, planned and scheduled. Not to mention - than deserved.

I feel rather cheated by the 'fate' or 'karma' or whatever you choose to call this force that I'm told stands behind all that. It fail to see a reason why should I be repeatedly kicked in the gut, like it's not enough that I'm already beaten, broken, ready to give up.

I try to smile. I try to be strong. I try to be steady.
Why does it have to be so bloody hard?!