Reward Systems

First of all, they say:

"Never tell anyone that you're writing a book, going on a diet, exercising, taking a course, or quitting smoking. They'll encourage you to death."
   Lynn Johnston

Since this year I will be doing all of the above, I'm not telling you.

But one thing for sure, when it comes to the dieting, exercises and quitting smoking, even with these lovely patches, lozenges, chewing gums, running shoes, gym memberships, aqua aerobic, healthy shakes, food supplements and regular meals, there is something that all support programmes overlook.

I have discovered that my entire reward system revolves around food, alcohol and cigarettes.

When I have something to celebrate, I go out for lavish dinner with loads of drink and cigarettes. When I study, every now and then I stop for a break for three C's : coffee, cookie or chocolate and a ciggie. Whether it's a small step towards a great goal or an achievement of sorts, I always reward myself with the very things that I need to give up.

Now, most of all operate on a stick and carrot basis. I'm more of a carrot person, I don't respond well to sticks.
And there isn't a real stick there, I won't die if I don't loose weight, and not having exercises definitely won't kill me, the cigarettes kill to slowly to count. So how on earth am I to motivate myself to anything when my carrot is gone?

There is only one thing that I can think of that a woman could get in reward of being slim, athletic and non-smoking.

More sex.

Only I'm already in a relationship that gives me as much of it I can get so why bother?